Saying Yes

My goal for 2012 was to strive for BALANCE. Well, like anything else, in time of stress...we REGRESS! I found myself out of balance the past couple of weeks; not by intention nor by design.  It's ironic, actually. I took 3 days off work so that I could catch up on reports for court in attempt to keep it all in balance! Unfortunatly, when I was at home those three days, I was disappointed mortified by my childcare situation at home, and ended up not working but dealing with the mess at home.  That, of course, meant that my reports didn't get done. So, I worked on them until about 2 am every night/morning. Which lead to my old overuse injury returning...because I ended up turning in about 130 pages of single-space reports.  WHICH, of course...I felt even crappier, because I felt like I was neglecting my kids on top of them already having issues with our babysitter.  Hence, putting the arm brace back on; which meant no kickboxing.  And my RIDICULOUS "all or nothing" thinking...which I despise...crept up during my onslaught of sleepless nights and physical and emotional pain....and turned into this thought:
"Well, I can't work out! I might as well eat total junk."  (Except I didn't say junk!) Two weeks...and five pounds later...after binging on total "junk," and not working out...I feel horrible! It's funny.  I'm so consistent with my workouts...I even got a text message from my kickboxing teacher asking if I was o.k! So now, I have that uncomfortable maddening, "none of my clothes fit" feeling and I know it's all because of the choices I made as a result of my all or nothing thinking.  Therapist heal thyself! Although I am mortified to go to the gym tomorrow because I feel hardly recognizable now that I feel like frump girl...I will commit to going! In fact, I have to hurry up and write because I have to get up at 4:45 to get there in time! I did jog 4 miles today so that's a start.  I'm back on track. And I vow NOT to beat myself up any more!
This week I'm saying YES to...

• Getting back to the gym at least 5 days this week!
• YES to getting back into balance.
• I say YES to a presentation for Judge Clark, CPS, some lawyers, and the like...
• YES to not stressing about said presentation, but having fun with it instead:)
• I say YES to getting outside my comfort zone at least once a day!
• YES to 3 veggies a day & more water! (something I continually have to work on because I love me some Diet Coke & Coke Zero)
• I say YES to my boys...who are truly my heart!
• Yes to kisses, hugs, and experiencing the joy of the day through the eyes of my babes!
• YES to decorating for SPRING---which makes my heart happy!
• YES to daffoldil buds blooming and bursting with the reminders of the renewals of spring!
• I say YES to a little self-care somewhere in the week!
• YES to getting organized...a little better each week
• YES to honesty and not beating myself up for sometimes just not having it all together!
• YES to PROGRESS, NOT PERFECTION!
• YES to putting the past 2 weeks behind me and being the best version of myself---flaws & all!
• YES! YES! YES!